"OH HO!! Chemo....ay?? Bring it on, I can handle it, feeling great, life going on as normal, what's all the fuss about"
That was pretty much my take on the whole treatment thang until this week. I feel like crap! No energy and evil mood swings due to the whole "let's take your periods away and start you on the menopause girly". Alan doesn't know what to do with me, I am alternating between Uncle Fester lying on the sofa to snarling, spitting baldy wife. Yesterday I spent a good half hour walking round the kitchen sobbing and sniffling, not knowing "what to do with myself". Everything was crap and Alan doesn't really "do" hysterics bless him.
Part of my sadness has been caused by thinking about Mum and Dad, boy do I miss them.It's at times like these when you need the old unconditional love that parents can show you. I need a hug from my Mum for sure, but it ain't going to happen.
Nothing made me feel better yesterday, in the end I found something to interest me on the TV and spent a couple of hours watching the re-run of The Golden Globes. Cor what an event, not the best thing to watch to crank up the self esteem when you are bald and bloated, but I still enjoyed it. The place was wall to wall celebs and glam, the dresses! the hair! I would give my right arm and possibly my left to be there and glammed up like that. Several years ago, my pal was nominated for an Oscar (yep really) I like to live vicariously through the success of some of my glam mates. He said it was the most terrifying night of his life, everywhere he looked there were "A"-Listers and he did not want to win as he would have to get up on stage.
I would like to stand up for Kate Winslett, I thought her speech was brill! I lovd the "gather" bit LOL!!
Our Kate has been lady in waiting "awards -wise" for several years , blow me she goes and wins two! Of course then the press jump all over her for being over - dramatic, she's an actress for God's sake, that's her job, DOH! Let's celebrate the fact that she is British arrgggghh!!!!! I am a bit of a Kate fan, can you tell?
Talking of good news, what about the pilot who averted disaster in New York this week?I was listening to the Jeremy Vine show on Friday and some ARSE rang in, huffing and puffing saying "this pilot should not be called a hero, he trains for situations like this, he was just doing his job" Arrggggh!! what did the guy have to do to be a hero, land blindfolded with one arm tied behind his back.......Good news, it seems to be wasted on many, don't you think?
4 comments:
Blimey, hope tomorrow is a better day for you. I agree, well done Kate and that pilot is defo a hero in my eye's and I'm quite sure the people he saved think so too xxx
Sorry to hear you're feeling so rubbish Sam, hope you have a better week this week.
Jenni x
ps Heard that guy on the Jeremy Vine show and wanted to give him a kick!
YAY for Kate Winslett - YAY for the pilot. He actually managed to perform a feat that according to my ex-aeronautical engineer twin brother says ... is impossible. If he had landed on the front it would have flipped. If he had landed on the tail it would have dipped, and if he had broken one wing off, it would just have gone around and around in circles at 180mph. Oh, when he literally belly-flopped, he did it at 180mph. That to me is a miracle.
Soooooo miracles do happen Sam, and the miracle will be that your sicky icky feeling will go soon.
I hope so anyway. Sending you heaps of love and tons of hugs.
Cal xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Sorry to hear you are feeling rough this week! Hope today is better, another day forward to being well again! Hugs and Wishes Jenny x
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