On the Beach
Yesterday we took a drive over to Fife to St Andrews. Alan spent most of his hols as a child in St Andrews and we have visited it often.
The weather was glorious and we had a picnic on the beach. Mind you by the time we got there I was starving and had low blood sugar grumpiness. It was warm but windy and every 5 mins I was getting a face full of sand which was flying all over the food. We retreated into the sand dunes where I took this pic
I soon cheered up though , we went shopping, a place with a Fat Face and a White Stuff can't be all bad eh? Especially since they both had sales on.
We topped off our day with a trip to the Fish and Chip shop at Pittenween, and ate them by the harbour.
When we got home the old grief kicked in I had the urge to call my Mum to tell her all about our day, of course I couldn't. Then it dawned on me, the horrible, horrible realisation that there is no-one is at home wondering what we are up to, whether we got home safe and how we are. I can't tell you what an awful empty feeling that is.
Hey ho, it'll happen from time to time I just have to accept it.
2 comments:
I'm glad you had a rough day and sad you had one of the moments of realization of your mother.
I had one yesterday too . . . about my father. I lost him in March. My sister posted a picture of herself with Dad on her Facebook profile and then posted a comment on mind. Which is totally cool. But the picture Eirin and Dad caused me to hide in my office for a few minutes which I struggled with tears.
My heart is with you.
you will have many moments like that. I've lost count of the number of times I have actually dialled DH's number during the day. Hugs to you Sam,
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